Note: This post was written on Saturday to post on Monday morning, and when it goes live, I'll be riding a horse somewhere in the mountains of the Bob Marshall Wilderness (Montana, USA).
I'm on a week-long adventure that involves horses, breathtaking scenic beauty, intensive therapy, and most likely grizzly bears. Wowza! I have no experience riding horses or being around horses, am freaked out by bears, and have significant anxiety about entering unfamiliar situations, but I felt a strong calling from God to go on this adventure and confront the fears that hold me back from fully living into life.
Not ever having done something like this before, I have no experience to draw on for setting expectations or preparing for what to bring. This has caused considerable anxiety as my fears tend to run wild when I lack information and experience, both of which provide me a sense of control. Apparently, I'm a bigger control freak than I ever realized! Yikes.
Nahum wants to come with me!
When I first read the description of this program, the phrase "a small herd of gentle well loved horses" tugged at my heart. I'm not sure why, but it was very compelling, enough so that I took the plunge and am now riding a horse in amazing beauty.
When I get back, I'll fill you in on the status of my fears. I'm hoping I can leave the bulk of them in the wilderness. Meanwhile, join me in a toast - to courage!!