I have been trying to use the drop trap, because it makes me less anxious. I have heard trapped cats can thrash about in their traps, and seeing that would be too traumatic for me.
|With trap baited, BK happily eats his lunch. 11/9/2011 1:55pm|
|BK tells me what he thinks of the trap! 11/9/11 1:54pm|
I went out yesterday morning to feed him breakfast as usual and we spent about an hour or more together loving on each other and cuddling. Using an old shoe lace, I learned that he likes to play string! He also enjoys bopping his nose to mine, something I used to adore about Max. Each day he gets more and more relaxed with me, it's very lovely. And each day he doesn't want our visiting time to end. He has tried to follow me in the house and when I don't let him in he makes very sad, pittiful meows and gives me his saddest looking expression.
After BK avoided the trap on Wednesday, I again set it up yesterday, although this time I used sardines as bait. I expected him to ignore it again, but he went in. I stood there, cord in hand. All I had to do was pull the cord and I would have had him and yet I couldn't bring myself to do it after our delightful hang out time just minutes before. Moments later he walked away, having enjoyed his sardine snack.
I worked hard at not beating myself up for not pulling the cord. I tried to tell myself, that now he will be more comfortable going into the trap the next time. I also reminded myself that everything happens for a reason. Maybe I didn't pull the cord because it wasn't meant to happen that day. It helped a lot to discuss my feelings of fear and shame with Laura, so I could release those feelings and not remain bound by them.
This morning the same routine unfolded. Except this time, I felt I had greater emotional strength, drawing from yesterday's experience. It also helped immensely to have Laura assisting, in fact she was the one to pull the cord and drop the trap. BK had a brief moment of panic as he tried to escape the trap but quickly he realized resistance was futile. He curled up and remained motionless until Laura approached when he started to panic again.
The plan was for Laura to transfer BK from the drop trap to the wire transfer trap. That way BK's experience of me would not be tainted by the trapping trauma. But, in an instant, I realized I could not just stand idly and watch him be terrified, I had to be there to calm him as best as I could. And I think my presence and voice did help calm him. Once we got him into the covered transfer trap, he stopped his resistance.
Empty drop trap after a successful capture!
I really appreciate all the supportive comments, thanks everyone! Also a huge thanks to Laura for being such an awesome supportive person - she is an amazing woman and I'm so thankful to be partnered with her for life's crazy journey.